Friday, December 10, 2010
Are you old enough to remember these stupid Christmas trees? I think they became the rage in about 1959. I remember that we got ours when I was in about the second grade. My mother and sister both had them in their homes. My mother never really decorated for Christmas. We had a tree with a manger below. That is probably why when I got married, it became my tradition do go all out decorating for Christmas. Lights inside, outside and anywhere I could put them. I collect Nativities so they are stuck wherever I can find a spot. I also have quite a collection of village houses. Some years they have taken over the house. I like to put up decorations the day after Christmas and usually take it down the first weekend after Christmas.
Terry's mother never decorated too much for Christmas. I'm not sure how soon she puts up the tree, but she takes it down on Christmas Day. Christmas Day for gosh sakes!! I'm telling you this because EVERY year Terry gripes about the Christmas decor. We don't need a tree, big pain to put up the lights outside, blah blah blah. I made a comment early on that maybe I wouldn't put a tree up. A few weeks later I mentioned where I thought I would put the tree this year. His reply was "I didn't think you were going to do that this year".
And THAT my friends was the straw that broke my spirit. I don't blame Terry at all. He didn't say anything any different than he does EVERY year when I just ignore him, ask him to get the decorations out of the attic and he does. This year I didn't ask and I'm not going to. No tree, no lights outside. He has his issues, I have mine. All these years of decorating have been done for ME. Because I enjoyed it. Because I loved to look at it. I thought it was for THEM. This year is just different. I have no desire to hear a carol, see the lights or make presents. Its a state of mind that will pass in about 2 weeks and I'm good with it. At peace. The first Christmas season in forever, no stress. I suppose it could be called some kind of depression. I'm waiting to see what my mood is after the first of the year.
So, for my friends that read this..no worries...I'm good with it. I have been focusing on some projects that interest me. Really focused. More than I have been all year. That's why I'm not worried. Because I am enjoying my time.
For those that may read and relate, good. You know you are not the only one. You are why I posted this.
To my friends that may wonder where my daily inspirational emails and comments are...well...they are in my head...I am just in a short withdrawl.. I'll Be Back!!
Happy Holiday Wishes To You All