Thursday, December 30, 2010

Inspiration at the....MALL????

Corey is taking Driver's Ed. The classroom is in a room at the mall. Since I was off on Monday, he drove me there. At $3.19 for a gallon of gas, I decided to stay there and wait for him. I never get any time to just browse around the mall by myself. Well, 3 hours was a little much, but I toughed it out ~ lol~.

I spent an hour in JoAnn Fabric walking up and down the aisles looking at everything there. I bought some clearance fabric and a new book. Then I mosied down to JC Penny. I never go there anymore. Their prices are a little steep for me. Its not that they are expensive, its just that I don't really need anything so I am pretty selective in what I spend my money on. But could you please tell me how a purse that isn't even leather is $70. Not just . A. purse, but almost every one was $70 or more. But I did notice the new styles and spent quite a bit of time looking at the jewelry. I went to several other stores browsing in the same manner. I got a lot of ideas and still had time to relax and look at my new book until Corey's class was done. It was time well spent.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Are You Resolute?

I was thinking about the things that I listed that I wanted to do this year.  Actually, I really did do most of them.  Just not in a big way. Not in an accomplished way.  Not in a satisfying way.

So, I started to really think about why that was.  The first thought that popped in my head was that I didn't make enough time.

Make time? You can't MAKE time.  There are only 24 hours in the day and no matter what you do, or how smart you are, its impossible to put more than 24 hours in one day.

Do you read "Notes from the Voodoo Cafe"? Well, even if you don't, and you think you need to MAKE Time, read just this one post that I gave you the link to. Rice is an author and so much more. She starts this post off with this sentence: "To make more creative time and space, you're going to have to give up something."

That first sentence just stood right up and talked to me.  MAKE time? Impossible. Rearrange priorities, yes. Give up time spent on something not so important and redirect that time to what I want to be doing.  Yes.  Difficult maybe.  But possible.  Break old habits.

Rediscover the importance of me. That is my goal for the year.

Five people live here now.  It cramps the space, thats for sure. But boys CAN pick up after themselves.  They can do dishes.  They can do laundry. They really do know how to vacuum and clean the bathroom and wash mirrors and be sure the mutts are fed and watered.  They can even cook or at the very least, start supper.

Huge revelation...I am not all things to everyone, and I can say that with NO GUILT.  And I pushed my funky mood right out the door.. Gone for Good and Good for me!!

My goal is in place for the year.  I have already started delegating and reclaiming time. 

My January BJP is in the works.  I have a couple other projects I have wanted to try.  I do have to de-clutter my room a bit, but I have been working on that too.

I am resolute but without Resolutions.
I am liberated. 

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

2007 - Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Christmas Eve in Sarajevo

Please enjoy my favorite Christmas music set to beautifully sychronized lights.
Merry Christmas and wishing you a prosperous New Year.
xx, Carol

Friday, December 10, 2010

A Quiet Christmas

Are you old enough to remember these stupid Christmas trees?  I think they became the rage in about 1959.  I remember that we got ours when I was  in about the second grade.  My mother and sister both had them in their homes.  My mother never really decorated for Christmas.  We had a tree with a manger below.  That is probably why when I got married, it became my tradition do go all out decorating for Christmas.  Lights inside, outside and anywhere I could put them.  I collect Nativities so they are stuck wherever I can find a spot.  I also have quite a collection of village houses.  Some years they have taken over the house.  I like to put up decorations the day after Christmas and usually take it down the first weekend after Christmas.

Terry's mother never decorated too much for Christmas.  I'm not sure how soon she puts up the tree, but she takes it down on Christmas Day.  Christmas Day for gosh sakes!!  I'm telling you this because EVERY year Terry gripes about the Christmas decor.   We don't need a tree, big pain to put up the lights outside, blah blah blah.  I made a comment early on that maybe I wouldn't put a tree up.  A few weeks later I mentioned where I thought I would put the tree this year.  His reply was "I didn't think you were going to do that this year". 

 And THAT my friends was the straw that broke my spirit.  I don't blame Terry at all.  He didn't say anything any different than he does EVERY year when I just ignore him, ask him to get the decorations out of the attic and he does.  This year I didn't ask and I'm not going to. No tree, no lights outside. He has his issues, I have mine.  All these years of decorating have been done for ME.  Because I enjoyed it. Because I loved to look at it. I thought it was for THEM.  This year is just different.  I have no desire to hear a carol, see the lights or make presents.  Its a state of mind that will pass in about 2 weeks and I'm good with it.  At peace.  The first Christmas season in forever, no stress. I suppose it could be called some kind of depression.  I'm waiting to see what my mood is after the first of the year.

So, for my friends that read worries...I'm good with it. I have been focusing on some projects that interest me. Really focused.  More than I have been all year.  That's why I'm not worried.  Because I am enjoying my time.

For those that may read and relate, good.  You know you are not the only one. You are why I posted this.

To my friends that may wonder where my daily inspirational emails and comments are...well...they are in my head...I am just in a short withdrawl.. I'll Be Back!!

Happy Holiday Wishes To You All